Wednesday, February 25, 2015

My Neighbor

So here's the latest drama and I'll try to keep this brief.  We have a neighbor, who has a schizophrenic son, and the son believes our girls are 'ours' -his and mine- and that I'm living with another man.

Things have escalated in the last couple weeks and his condition has become more and more unstable and unpredictable over the last few months.  Consequently, we have come to realize we must move out of the home that we love and adore, and had hoped to someday own, just 3 weeks after the owner asked us if we'd like to buy it in 2 or 3 years, and not long after we renewed our lease for another 2 years. That's the short of it.

We can't even remain in the same school zone (that we had meticulously chosen), nor the neighboring zone, as the police have cautioned that the neighbor's son could find us all too easily. We'll have to move to an entirely different area now - - and our current home, we only live about 6-7 blocks away from the angel boy-O's mom, so that arrangement will be lost as well.

If anything were to ever happen, we would never be able to forgive ourselves, so we have to move and change everything. I am utterly heartbroken.

Sunday, February 08, 2015

Fundraising is Something I Do

So, um, my latest enthusiasm has involved Girl Scout Cookie sales on behalf of my brand new Girl Scout Daisy, my 5 years and three-quarters-old daughter, and her very new GS Troop (just created this past month).

Since the 29th of January, I posted on Facebook several times (much of it on my own, some of it by Juli-Bean's asking), we called several friends and family (about a dozen, and only those Juliette named on her own), I sent some individual texts and FB messages to certain people (not a ton, but again, only those who Juliette had named on her own), and my daughter went to my work for an afternoon with me and she give her sales pitch in person to over 90 people, and the day after that, we set up a GS Cookie Booth at my work for about 3 hours last Friday afternoon. She -we- sold over 650 boxes of Girl Scout Cookies. Her goal was 500 boxes.

Well, what can I say? I've been uber eager to help my new little Daisy and the girls of her new GS Troop be well prepared for the next season, able to participate and learn and grow without any financial issues that could prevent any of the girls from being able to do all that they want to do as a troop next year.

Indeed, G.S. Cookie Sales are meant to Support the Girls.

I've recently come to the realization though that fundraising is not something that everyone does. And not everyone is comfortable with being asked to give or spend money on behalf of something, no matter what it is.

Fundraising is something I've done a lot of in the past... Girl Scouts, Junior Achievement, for H.S. Concert Choir state trips, Susan G. Komen, the American Cancer Society, the angel boy-O's old elementary school, and the MS Society - -  and aggressively so, some more than others.

My fundraising style is based on 3 primary things:

  1. A desire to make a difference.
  2. A clear understanding that you cannot -and will not- get what you don't ask for.
  3. I know that people sometimes fully intend to give their support, but they simply forget. Consequently, I offer / provide multiple reminders with those very people in mind, to help them not forget... 
My asking more than once, I do not mean for this to harass, irritate or pester anyone - I mean only to encourage the giving of an answer, if I haven't yet been given a final answer, and to remind those who've said yes, but haven't yet finalized a commitment.

For those who do not want to participate or cannot give, or whatever, I do understand that my persistent efforts to encourage and to remind can be misconstrued as irritating and persistent harassment. I honestly had forgotten about this possibility until it was recently brought to my attention... 

Please, please understand, I'm only trying to enthusiastically encourage the ease of supporting our efforts in order for us to achieve our set goals, as we cannot experience success without support. By no means does anyone have to participate, even when asked to. There is no expectation of support - - just a hopeful hope.

Of course, I'd be lying if I didn't admit it's a bummer when you believe what you're trying to do is worthy of support and you believe your goal is attainable, and you ask for help, and don't receive the support you seek, Nonetheless, no one should feel guilty for not supporting a fundraiser. I certainly do not want our efforts to provoke anyone to feel badly for any reason.

Just the same, please understand that we're just excited, hopeful and eager to achieve something good... like yummy cookie sales to support the Girl Scouts of Utah! Big grin and a wink.


Wednesday, January 21, 2015

40 Years Old and Still Learning

My first lesson I'm trying to finally learn and keep, now that I'm 40 years old (even though I've heard this too many times to count over the last 40 years): I cannot possibly do everything I want, nor all that I think I should do, and that's okay (repeat to self, everyday for the next 40 years if that's what it takes).

Monday, January 19, 2015

Crafty Clever Avoidance Reasoning

Spoken by my wee one, "Mom, you know how I'm little? Well, I'm too little to do that by myself." This was her response to my asking her to please put her dress up clothes away this morning.

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Songs from my Head - the running tally

Although this post is dated December 31, 2014, this list was first published sometime in 2005. I intend to update it with each and every song of note that gets stuck in my head over time... 


..."Sunspots" by Bob Mould...
..."Do You Want to Touch" by Joan Jett and The Blackhearts...

..."We Are Young" by Run (I don't know how this happened)...
..."Wise Up" by Aimee Mann...
..."Dashboard" by Modest Mouse...
..."Soul Meets Body" by Death Cab for Cutie...
..."She Sells Sanctuary" by The Cult...
..."Within Your Reach" by the Replacements...
..."Smackwater Jack" by Carole King... 

..."Wise Up" by Aimee Mann...
..."Moon, Moon, Moon" sung by Laurie Berkner...
..."Everlasting Everything" by Wilco...
..."Crossfire" by Brandon Flowers...
..."Shake Your Groove Thing" by Peaches & Herb...

..."The Underdog" by Spoon...
..."Bootylicious" by Destiny's Child (and how the hell did this happen, you ask? Listening to the Top 00's on Yahoo)...
..."Tick Tock" by Ke$ha (I'm so ashamed - I do NOT know how the hell this happened)...  

..."Don't Stop Believing" by Journey...
..."Jerk It Out" by the Caesars...

..."Hey There Mr. Blue Sky" by Electric Light Orchestra... 

 ...Anything from Kings of Leon...
..."Poker Face" by Lady GaGa (can't get it out of my head!)...
..."Good Day Sunshine" by The Beatles...
..."Rock with You" by The King of Pop...
..."Don't Stop the Music" by Rhianna (freakin' infectious song!)...
..."Puff the Magic Dragon" sung by Peter, Paul & Mary...  

..."Diamonds are a Girl's Best Friend" sung by Nicole Kidman from Moulin Rouge...
..."The Dynamo of Volition" by Jason Mraz...
..."Bushfire" by the B52s... 

 ..."Jolene" by Ray Lamontagne...
..."Boogie on Reggae Woman" by Stevie Wonder...
..."You and I Both" by Jason Mraz...
..."Accidentally Kelly Street" by Frente...
..."Supermassive Black Hole" by Muse...
..."Spiralling" by Keane...
...You're the One That I Want" from the movie, Grease...
..."Life Less Ordinary" by Carbon Leaf...
..."Diablo Rojo" by Rodrigo y Gabriela...
 

..."Breathe Me" by Sia...  
..."I Grieve" by Peter Gabriel...
..."This Is Our Life" by Mary Beth Maziarz -- put on my iPod by my honey-man... 

 ..."Trapped in the Drive Thru" by Weird Al Yankovic...
..."White & Nerdy" by Weird Al Yankovic...

..."Something" by The Beatles...
..."Witchcraft" by Frank Sinatra...
..."Concrete & Clay" by Unit 4+2 (from the Rushmore Sndtrck)...
 

..."Cherry, Cherry" by Neil Diamond (oh yes!)...  
..."Maps" by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs...
..."I Need a Hero" by Frou Frou (a cover of the song from Footloose!)...
..."Your Hand in Mine" from Explosions in the Sky...
..."Girls And Boys" from Blur...
 

..."Give It Up" Kylie Minogue...
 ..."An Honest Mistake" by The Bravery...
..."Been Caught Stealing" by Jane's Addiction...
..."Thank You" by Angie Mattson, because my honey-man is so good to me...
..."Penny Lane" by The Beatles...
..."No One" by Alicia Keys (I do not know how this happened)...
..."Wake Up" by Arcade Fire (I listened to this album on repeat for several days in Keystone)...
 

..."Money" by Jesca Hoop (I've been whistling it for 2 days now)... 
 ..."Here (In Your Arms)" by Hellogoodbye...
..."Everything Comes Down to Poo" from Scrubs...
..."I Feel Fine" by The Beatles...
..."Hush" by Deep Purple...
..."This Fire" by Ferry Corsten...
..."Into the Dark" by Ferry Corsten (it's all Daly's fault!)...
...Never My Love" by The Association...
... "Promises" by India Arie ...
... "Baby, I Love You" by Aretha Franklin (from our Wedding Luncheon) ...
... "Simple Gifts" by Yo Yo Ma with Alison Krauss (from our Wedding)...
..."Dance Me to the End of Love" by Madeleine Peyroux (from our Wedding Luncheon)...
..."White Wedding" from the Billy Idol...
..."Loathing" from the 'Wicked' Broadway Soundtrack...
..."Xanadu" with Olivia Newton John (I need help)...
..."Defying Gravity" from the 'Wicked' Broadway Soundtrack...
..."An Honest Mistake" by The Bravery (over and over again)...
..."Young Folks" by Peter, Bjorn & John (Needless to say, I'm whistling a lot)...
..."No Brakes" by The Bravery (Reminds me of an old boyfriend, although this song is from 2005. Funny how strong old associations can be, springing up anywhere.)...
..."Fire" by Ferry Corsten...
..."Fergalicious" by Fergie (HELP. ME. PLEASE.)...
..."Burn for You" by Kreo' (this one is a common repeat)...
..."Everything She Wants" by WHAM! (oh yes!)...
..."Day Tripper" by The Beatles...
..."Southern Man" by Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young (I am my father's daughter)... 

 ..."Six Minutes" by Boy Kill Boy (it's one of their most annoying songs, but I LOVE it!?!)...
..."Bitter Sweet Symphony" by The Verve (gunna be stuck whistling the strings for the rest of this week, I'm sure)...

..."Smile" by Lily Allen...
..."The Cool, Cool River" by Paul Simon...
..."Death on Two Legs" by Queen (how did this happen?)... 

 ..."A la Bahia" by SiSe (on repeat)...  
..."Obvious Child" by Paul Simon (I can still remember this drums session like yesterday! = goosebumps!)...
..."Burn for You" by Kreo (got a club party goin' in mah office!)...
..."This Is It (Your Soul)" by Hothouse Flowers (some MAAAYJERR H.S. flashbacks goin' on here!)... 

 ..."Feels Just Like It Should" by Jamiroquai (lots of quirky head jerkin' goin' on here)...  
..."Rabbit Pushing Mover" (what that means, I dunno!) by Toy... 
..."Hard Headed Woman" by Cat Stevens... 
..."Lovely 2 C U" by Goldfrapp... ..."Invincible" by Ok Go...
..."I AM THE WALRUS" by The Beatles, of course... 

 ..."Morning Yearning" by Ben Harper...  
..."Powerless" by Nelly Furtado...  
..."I Gotta Know" by Nikka Costa... 
 ..."American Pie" by Don McLean... 
 ..."(Everybody's Waiting for) The Man With the Bag" sung by Kay Star... 
..."Baby, It's Cold Outside" sung by Dean Martin...  
..."Belief" by John Mayer... 
..."Gravity" by John Mayer... 
..."Listen Up!" (AGAIN!) by The Gossip...   
..."What Sarah Said" by Death Cab For Cutie... 
..."Bang" by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs...  
..."Do What You Want" by Ok Go (of course)...  
..."No Cheap Thrill" by Suzanne Vega... 
..."Over and Over Again (Lost and Found)" by Clap Your Hands Say Yeah (odd vocal approach, I admit, but to me, the music is infectious)... 
..."Heal Over" by K.T. Tunstall (over and over and over again)...  
..."A Million Ways" mixed with some "Here It Goes Again" - both by Ok Go...I'm lovin' em... I dreamt in Ok Go last night!?!... 
..."Living After Midnight" by Judas Priest... I've never had this happen before. Dammit, JACK FM!...  
..."Pretty Little Thing" by The Fink... 
..."Listen Up!" by The Gossip...  
..."Les Filles A Canon" by Jean Leloup... 
..."Some Title in French" by Jean something-that-means-The Wolf-in-french... 
..."Creep" by Radiohead, of course...  
..."Butterfly" by Crazy Town...This song is addictive...  
..."Footloose" by Kenny Loggins... Later on, "I Need a Hero" played over a restaurant intercom and I was in heaven!... ..."Girl and the Sea" by The Presets... 
 ...A most guilty confession: Not only do I have track #10 of 'that' Ace of Base album stuck in my head - - I actually OWN the CD...  
...Still runnin' on "Suzie" by Boy Kill Boy (soooo LOVE the BRIT POP!)...  
..."Displaced" by Azure Ray... 
..."Suzie" by Boy Kill Boy (I'm a total sucker for Brit Rock/Pop!)...  
..."Canned Heat" by Jamiroquai (under the influence of SYTYCD!)...  
..."Don't Panic" by Cold Play...  
..."People are People" by Depeche Mode...  
..."Layla" by Eric Clapton...  
..."Here Comes The Sun" by The Beatles...  
..."New Slang" by The Shins...  
..."Ready, Steady, Go" by Paul Oakenfold...  
..."Heartbeat" by Annie...  
..."Stranglehold" by Ted Nugent (God help me)...  
..."And She Was" by Talking Heads...  
..."A Sorta Fairytale" by Tori Amos... 
 ..."Fast Love" by George Michael... 
..."Tainted Love" by Soft Cell... 
...Nikka Costa's "Everybody Got Their Something"...I can SOOOO listen to this song over and OVER and over (you get the idea?)... ...Interpol's "Evil"...  
..."Toxic" by Britney Spears...Yes, I confess - I love this song AND I know ALL THE FREAKIN' WORDS - oh help me. There's no hope... 
 ..."Ooh La La" by Goldfrapp... 
 ..."Destination Unknown" by the Missing Persons (When this one gets stuck in my head, it's there for DAYS!!)... 
..."Daydream Believer" by the Monkeys (Nope, no shame at all, I tell ya!)... 
 ..."Truth" by the Dixie Chicks!...  
..."Rich Girl" by Gwen Stefani... FUNNY NOTE: My honey-man overhead me whistling this and thought I was rockin' it to a tune from Fiddler on the Roof! ~there's the 10-year age difference making itself known...  
..."Don't Bring Me Down" by ELO... 
 ..."New Beginning" by Tracy Chapman...  
..."Vanilla Sky" by Paul McCartney...  
..."Dream On" by Depeche Mode... 
 ..."Bigmouth Strikes Again" by The Smiths... 
 ..."Goody Two Shoes" by Adam Ant... 
 ..."Soul Meets Body" by Death Cab for Cutie... 
 ..."Starry Eyed Surprise" by Paul Oakenfold...  
..."Parklife" by Blur...  
..."Your Kiss is on My List" by Daryl Hall & John Oates (yes, I am a nerd and I have no shame)... 
 ..."Goodnight and Go" by Imogen Heap... 
 ..."Let Go" by Frou Frou... 
 ..."Tangerine" by Led Zeppelin... 
 ..."Brass in Pocket" by The Pretenders...

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Mid-January Sunset in 2013, as seen from our Front Door

Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerry - - this had been sitting as a draft since January of 2013

I'm Back! - kinda

Wow. I don't think I've logged into this blog for nearly two years? It's been a long, long time... and I've realized that without taking some time to write about it, whether it be to share some forgettable dithering, or my personal epiphanies, time is passing by quickly. I don't remember as much as I had before, when I used to take time to write, to reflect in writing.

For the last two years, so much of my time is spent doing for others, namely, my darling family, but I need something of my own beyond Facebook time.  I do enjoy Facebook, but it's not as, um, sufficient. Here, I can tout my opinions and be silly and be this or that, and it's not for all my 'friends' to see... not unless they, or anyone else, chooses to come here.

Lately, I feel the need to renew some past 'selfish' practices, to recreate something of my own in my life that's for me. Although blogging is a public format, I always felt it was for me.

We'll see how this goes, I guess.  And have a Happy New Year!

Monday, December 31, 2012

Holiday Cheer & Happy New Year to Y'all!

Signs you've had a little too much holiday cheer (hee, hee):

1. You take off your shoes and wade in the potato salad.

2. You hear a duck quacking and it's you.

3. You refill your glass from the fish bowl.

5. You hear someone say, "Call a priest!"

6. You complain about the small bathroom after emerging from the closet.

7. You ask for another ice cube and put it in your pocket.

8. You tell everyone you have to go home... and the party's at your place.

9. You have to hold on to the floor to keep from sliding off.

10. You pick up a roll, and butter your watch.

Saturday, November 03, 2012

Can't Complain

I have three particular friends in mind, all of whom nearly never complain, no matter what's going wrong for them - -

One friend in particular, she really could lodge some very, VERY valid complaints against life.  Whenever I try to persuade or all out push her to vent, thinking she must need to with all that she has on her plate, I almost always get nothing from her - - She's sooo focused on all the good things in her life despite the rest; sooo incredibly grateful for what she does enjoy, rather than waste her energy complaining about what she doesn't want or doesn't have.

She often serves me as a major reality check, if and when I ever find myself pouting. Memories of my own mum also serve me in the same way, indeed.

I'm so grateful for my dear friends and family who serve as voices of hope and love, optimism and positive outlook, resilience and perseverance, and all that good stuff that makes the world go round!

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Halloween Humor

An extremely modest man was in the hospital for a series of tests, the  last of which had left his bodily systems extremely upset. Upon making several false alarm trips to the bathroom, he decided the latest episode was another and stayed put. He suddenly filled his bed with diarrhea and was embarrassed beyond his ability to remain rational.

In a complete loss of composure, he jumped out of bed, gathered up the bed sheets, and threw them out the hospital window.

A drunk was walking by the hospital when the sheets landed on him. He started yelling, cursing, and swinging his arms violently trying to get the unknown things off, and ended up with the soiled sheets in a tangled pile at his feet.

As the drunk stood there, unsteady on his feet, staring down at the sheets, a hospital security guard (barely containing his laughter) who had watched the whole incident walked up and asked, "What the heck is going on here?"

The drunk, still staring down replied:   "I think I just beat the shit out of a ghost."

Saturday, June 30, 2012

Things You Think of Inbetween Feedings

Whose cruel idea was it for the word "Lisp" to have a "S" in it?

Monday, June 25, 2012

She's Here Now and 2 Weeks Old Already

So, I haven't been online much since the arrival of our new lil' addition to our family, who is, by the way, 2 weeks old as of today and is totally adorable - - I cannot lie, she's gorgeous! And she is a ridiculously effortless baby, no less.  Yup, she's sooo easy - - easy peasey, lemon-squeezy, as our lil' Jellybean would say.

Since her arrival I've been posting stuff to Facebook via my Blackberry, but that's been about it until today.  Plus, I never really had the chance to write much about my pregnancy, compared to my first -with or without comparisons really- and I've missed writing anything about my repeat c-section or the past 2 weeks' time. 

For now, I'll just say that I've spent the last 2 weeks trying hard to not repeat the same mistakes I'd made after Jellybean's c-section delivery.  Consequently, my coming and goings have been strictly limited, including my ability to sit up in bed with a laptop.  Due to my diligent determination to rest and take things slowly, I stopped taking my pain meds this past Saturday at midnight, to be exact, and although it's slowed me down some (which is NOT a bad thing), I'm much improved and I'm clearly on my way to a solid recovery, which will include some backlogged blogging.

Lastly, our lil' darling daughter arrived June 11th, 2012, Monday morning at 8am, sharp. The cesarean delivery was flawless, as is she.  As for her full name, it's got two Vs, three I's, two N's, 5 E's, 2 M's, two L's and two T's - she's gunna complain when she's old enough to write it all out, I'm sure!

Tuesday, June 05, 2012

In 6 DAYS

In 6 days -the maximum- we will have ourselves a new lil' addition to our family! woot! woot!